I will tell you one thing that happens when you dare to dream. It scares you I mean really terrifies you. I am sitting here now knowing that I am being called to share my gift and yet I am scared because sometimes I feel as if my dream is so big I feel as if I can mess it all up. I remember as a kid I would dream about speaking to a crowd of people now I speak to real people instead of my imaginary audience. I keep going despite my fears, my doubts, my feelings of measuring up to other great speakers yet trusting that I have a gift a purpose. One thing I love more than anything is inspiring someone else to realize their worth and value. The old version of me did not know who she was so she could not see where she was going. The person I use to be had to go through something she had to be prepared for the journey she was about to make. Sometimes we look at our lives and all we see is everything that went wrong all the missed opportunities all the no’s, the slammed doors, lack of support, lack of resources. You see that everyone else around you are coming into their own, but we forget that each chapter in our lives has a purpose. Every mistake has a purpose that is how you grow as an individual. It’s how you learn your strengths as well as your weaknesses. You must accept that even the bad things were preparing you for your purpose. I truly believe that with all my heart.
This week I will be speaking at a Wellness Treat for Postpartum. I will not lie I was intimidated by the offer it scared me which is why I said yes. Knowing that my message my experience could help change someone else’s life is a humbling experience. It lets me know that every tear I cried every time I felt voiceless or worthless or overwhelmed by the pressure of life it was to take that moment so I could share it with someone else so that they knew they were not alone. That times are hard now but if you take a leap of faith if you trust and believe in whatever your higher spiritual power maybe. When you are ready your purpose will be there waiting.
At times I find myself crying I’m not sure if they are happy tears, sad tears, scared tears. I just know when I think about where I was at 20 years ago. When I use to pray for all that I have now to knowing that all my dreams are coming true. My heart feels so full. It is still scary it almost feels crazy because I know this is just the beginning. None of this could have ever happened without me knowing who I was as a person. I mean the stripped-down version of me without the titles the me that hide from everyone else, the me at my very core. Find who you are know that person love them unconditionally. Then show up as that version of you every day. Be BOLD Be YOU Be PROUD. Never give up on your dreams if you ever get the change to Dance please Dance.
To be honest I don’t know if anyone will ever read these words in my lifetime and I truly do not care. What I do know is that I AM HERE my words are here and no one or nothing can take that away. I am out here in these streets being unapologetically ME…..