I wish I could say I was one of those kids in school who always knew exactly what they wanted to do with their life. I was not that girl. I was the one who went from wanting to be a Vet at 5 then by the age of 10 I wanted to be a Dentist, by age 13 I decided I would defiantly be a Psychologist, fast forward to 17 it was a Teacher. The sad part is I did not end up doing any of these. Instead, I would end up spending 10 years searching for my purpose as well as hiding from it. As a kid the one thing I loved doing more than anything was talking to my imaginary audience. I would wake up early in the morning and sneak outside to share story after story. As I got older I started a talk show at my Aunt Margaret house where I would interview my cousins. This is what made me happy I did it without effort, but never would I allow myself to even think this was possible. I remember when my husband asked me about starting my own business my first thought was this dude lost his mind. First off I cannot make anything, I am not talented. However, he would not let it go he kept challenging me until one day I started to give it some serious thought. ( he made me dream again) I still came up empty handed until one day when I was going to see my mom something she had said in the past came to me. She had once told me that you write so good. So, I was like that’s it I will take my words and inspire others by being a speaker. Yeah I know you thought I was going to say I was going to be a writer. (Nope) I decided to be a speaker because those who know me best know I talk all the time. Let me be honest I had tried the speaking thing once before. Yep I was invited to speak at a Black History Program when I was about 27. It was an amazing opportunity one that was short lived because I got up on stage only to have the worst case of stage freight that left me shook for years. When I say that was embarrassing it was humiliating. Can you imagine standing on stage in front of your community looking crazy. It was like silent night no one said I stood their mouth dry, heart pounding, limbs shaking praying to sink into the floor. Yet I am so glad it happened because that version of me was not ready she had some growing to do. Sometimes we are given exactly what we need to prepare us for something greater.
Now at the same time I decided to give speaking another try I discovered coaching and podcasting. Things were coming full circle for me the crazy part was I did not even see it. Everything that I was doing I had already acted it out as a kid the speaking to imaginary audience, helping people unlock their purpose, having my own show. Here I was just trying to figure this life thing out not realizing it had come back to find me. One thing I knew for sure is I wanted to live a life that was so big I wanted it filled with adventure, passion, purpose, intention and most important made happiness. Now the idea of something this big is scary first off I didn’t know where to start. One thing about dreaming is it doesn’t come with a blueprint of what you suppose to do after you dream. So here I am with this huge dream bigger than me with no idea of what to do next. So little off subject I remember when I was about 14 I dreamed that I was invited to Diddy’s all white party. Now picture that the audacity to dream that big where me Mikita a.k.a Betty B little country girl invited to Sean Combs elusive party. However, my dream felt so real as if I had saw my future. Now for the record it has not came true yet and it could have been a metaphor for the greatness that was to come. Either way dreams like that give me something to strive for. Maybe one day I will host my pink party and it will be just as elusive. (I will tell you about my pink party another time)
However, it’s true finding a starting point for your dreams is not always easy it comes with a lot of trial, several errors, a few curse words but if you stay the course lots of good lessons. Dreaming big comes with something even scarier hope. My friend hope can be good or bad it is tied to the very core of our soul it is the essence of who we are as individuals. When we hope we do it with everything we are it gives life to our dreams. Which is why it hurts so much more when our dreams appear to fail. So here I am hoping against hope praying for the strength Daring myself to not just dream but to be BOLD. One thing that I have learned is that when you are on a journey the road can get lonely. You can walk with some assistance, but it is your walk, and no one can do it for you. The second thing I learned was I had to verbally share my dream let people know what I was doing. Now this was the hardest part ever. I was so scared it was like letting the world in to see my deepest fears and daring them to laugh. My first little test was simple post on FB I got a lot congrats then I told some friends at work who were all supportive. I wasn’t concerned about sharing this with my family they were always proud of anything I did so I knew they had my back. Now I just had to get some speaking gigs and in the meantime practice speaking by doing a few FB lives. Again, I don’t have a blueprint I don’t know any speakers, so I am just figuring this thing out. So, I did my FB lives the first one my heart was racing it felt like I forgot everything I was going to say I found myself rambling all off topic all within the first 2 minutes. (lol) Yet I kept doing the lives got more structured joined toastmasters which is an organization that helps you become a better speaker, signed up for the Free Speakers Bureau, then one day I got a call from a friend who invited me to be a speaker at her Women’s brunch. (Tempie thank you) I joined an online Speakers and Coaches Association. Then I got really clear about what I wanted to do. In doing this I decided I wanted to share my story through my blog. I want people to know that this journey is possible for anyone. I hope to share my knowledge while helping and inspiring someone else. It’s not about luck it’s about taking a chance being open to possibilities while daring yourself to Dance every chance you get. This my friend is just my beginning. I look forward to sharing more about how podcasting became such a huge outlet for me as well as what was my motivation behind it. I will tell you that and much more so stay tuned….